"..both waiting for an honest invitation...to rectify the situation..."

Intimately speaking...


There have been a lot of feelings flying back and forth between various parties within the circle here at Young, Gifted and Black Inc., and even a few feelings from external sources. Many people have felt: wronged, hurt, scorned, shut out, misused and abused etc. (you get the picture). The question is, WHY? I can't speak for everyone and their situations (however, I'm about to), but I can only imagine that it's due to a lack of communication. And when I say communication, I mean in every sense of the word, from the grand explanation of one's wrong doing, to figuring out where wires got crossed, to the very simple, sincere apology. The problem with this is that some of us don't know how to communicate effectively.

I know that I can, however, I also know that I don't always do so, especially when necessary, but I know I will (which implies that I need to at some point in the near future (which also implies that it may just be overdue)). Unfortunately, it's selfish of me to make someone that feels wronged by me wait for an apology; which ultimately makes me even more the bad guy. But, given that effective is the operative word in regard to the way in which I'm discussing communication, I have taken it upon myself to be just that in the best way that I know how. "How is that?", you ask...if you don't know by now, then you just don't know us at YGB!

Some people have accused me of talking in circles, meaning that I often repeat myself and possibly confuse listeners; a quality of which I am well aware (and proud). It doesn't hurt to make sure that every point is covered, every implication is discussed, and every loose end is tied up. I want to make a flawless point, meaning I've already pointed out the flaws so that it's apparent that I've thought thoroughly of what it is I'm thinking, and in turn, saying. This character trait may very well be my tragic flaw (along with others if you ask some people), but I own up to it because it allows me to carefully evalutate, articulate and discuss very complex thoughts and experiences. In other words, it is the fancy philosophical rhetoric that I use in order to explain why I may or may not be right or wrong, and no matter what, at the end of the day, I understand WHY it is that I think the way that I do. However, it is also the reason why it takes me a month to have a long, overdue conversation with a friend about aforementioned feelings of being hurt and done wrong.

I'm not completely sure what my point is, nor am I sure what it initially was, but I feel like now, as I'm thinking of what to type next, I have been trying to construct an argument in order to explain (i.e. "justify") current circumstances. I don't know...whatever...yeah, I'm done.


--- ygb