Random Words Pt.II

This instrumental, had to use it again, would be foolish if it, didn’t talk of them and me and you being (ha, ha) friends!, flicking through images, reminiscing on days passed, I get to your picture then, I giggle amazed at, the resemblance, they have, they differ in ways vast, discipline, can’t dag, too silly I may laugh, just look at that face sad, tempted to say DAD! I’m watching my steps, for those lips, cause they may drag, a movie, some popcorn, a pallet relaxing of the floor, how could I ask something more? my heart crushed and torn, but our love will force, the source, to glow, so it’s grow in abundance or, kill me softly, still these talks we, have on a regular, I feel she’s lost thee, laughs that I shared with her, reveal these thoughts speak, ask her to bear with the, stress the that I endure, it’s fact that I care for her, but it’s best that I live pure, attacking my character, says that you lend your, energies, to intervene, and if anything, pretty please love, please, "say that I just me!", let the record show, if effects me ever so, calmly?!?, of all things, didn’t wanna let HER go, but I did and I’m sorry, and now it’s hard seeing, we are no longer within an arm’s reach, so on we go, to the episode, where the one man army has to step alone, do I regret it no! I just tell her yo, the role you played and to what extent you will never know…

10 yrs

Day 1:

First and foremost I’m here to give thanks, to those who rekindled the flame, to help me remember those lost days, the misconceptions, what a difference a talk made, reminiscing, on when I jitted across stage, man did they all rave, hanging with ya’ll takes me back to the classrooms and when I ran through the hallways, smacking the clocks, though my actions were not, rambunctious, it still seemed to happened a lot, I had to craft something that would have love which adds exponentially to the reactions I got, seeing everybody who showed up, pose for, the photographer, who’s loading the, camera capturing shots, memories, give me a minute please this here’s weird, man how time flies, can’t believe it’s been 10 yrs, let’s make a toast to the fact we still here and still breathing, to build rapport is the real reason, we come together, not to mention us as kids teasing, the have-nots, but never think that it has stopped… ha, ha, which sends the message, you know what? We’re big kids no question, even as grown-ups, seeing it’s so much, strife we could gripe about, let’s try, to enjoy this day and night we out, the best times, we celebrated, so elated how, we left right, where we started and we made it wow…clap to rhythms drum, salutations, to the class of the millennium, vowed to stay in, touch, and so, on day 2, my contacts I will give to them…

Day 2:

Now, it was relayed to me the day would begin at 1, so I’ll leave then by maybe 3 and some, didn’t show for the boat ride, so I, thought to myself this picnic bout to be dope why, wouldn’t they come? I can sympathize with 30 something, but this time it’s only 5 bucks, and it’s just my luck, I get there and see no one, cause I’m the, first to arrive but, I had to leave, to seek a store, cause she of course, was bringing, nothing more than that but beef and pork, at the picnic, got to witness you with your children, bittersweet moment, cause mine are elsewhere, those flames I couldn’t keep’em lit, and I don’t see it fit, to mention no names, if you reading this, receiving it, thanks to those, who didn’t graduate with us, but they came along, and I can understand why some would be reluctant hang, stuck in the same, position, essentially nothing has changed, if I worked with someone or I saw them every day, I would purposely stall and even hesitate, and would not get involved, you can see it in my waist, that I’m chunky and flawed, so I’m thinking that I’ll wait, until the next one is called, but by then it’ll be too late, see I’m ugly and bald, or my egos in the way, so, nothing is resolved, so neither shows their face, leaving umpteen calls, let’s proceed on with the day…now ok look, here’s my email (mrelmjr@yahoo.com) blogspot (ygbstudentoflife.blogspot.com) and I’ll soon create a facebook, ha, ha, I may be stretching it though, you have a better chance of getting a text on yo phone, it’s been signed sealed delivered plus it came with a kiss, the way cadence laid, in ways it may not make any sense, but I made it stay in place, for me say it again, I’m giving thanks and praise away the inspiration for this…YOU!

Random Words

Seek refuge in a tablet to set my soul free; difficult to fathom, nothing happens unless it’s on me, this shadowy adversary, after me, said he would hassle me, if I’m caught relaxing or even half asleep, so naturally, I’m on my P’s and Q’s, I have to be to keep my cool, I rap to beats while I sing the blues, she mad at me, cause I think of you, whenever, capturing the sweetest tunes, never, ask for me to choose, I tell her, in secret, you’re a match for me I’m losing whether, it’s to being you, work, or actually pursuing endeavors, then it hurts, the fact I could lose you ever/lasting pain ensues this fella, what I have to do is let her, be…but it leaves me by my lonesome, I see, too many reasons that I need and want her, agreed, that she serene pleased I got know one, emcee, who’s King that she indeed has come close ta, but we…cause of decree, will both go from, beings, in the physical to meeting where we post stuff, most of, my energy is leaving when I want ta, stay, but I can’t, slay this feeling, I love and hate, amongst all things I wanna state, you’ve come to play, a significant role, wo(man) you’re something great, to each other on each other mustn’t wait,so peace love I wanna say, my farewells hey...so long darling!

Journal Entry #1

Intimately/Musically speaking...


I was told by one Sonny Bono that I've perfected the journal-entry style of rhyme writing; hence the title. With that being said, I won't give much foreword but to say that it's relatively self-explanatory.

Find My Soul by youngiftednblack

Lyrics:

Lately, I’ve been trying to figure out my purpose, feeling worthless cause I’m not working, I’m only going through the motions, wording thoughts and emotions spoken over beats hoping it’s heard, but alas, it’s for nothing, cause when I showed it, she responded leave her alone, and another is going off when we speak on the phone, and my brother makes late night trips so I’m sleeping alone, in his apartment, that doesn’t quite seem to be home, so no wonder you can only find me deep in these poems, communication skills lacking from this retreat that I’m on, can’t seem to reach beyond me when I zone, see, I can show my teeth when I’m on-stage, but when the curtain’s drawn, I’m just as weak as I’m strong, or seem to be when I know, they look to me for that glow, of confidence, but I’m not sure where to find it, so, I walk through the dark trying to keep my feet to the floor, who knows when this will subside, the deepest of lows

I just need some time alone, to find my soul, and I just wanna work this out, but I can’t seem to do it, on my own

Mapping out the placement, of the voices and the faces, I need to start questioning the choices that I’m making, and how can I be honest with you, I can’t even be honest with me, so I try to step out my shoes, to see the point of the picture, painted, none of it fiction, all truth, so I look away, cause I don’t wanna be witness to all of my faults, all of the awful thoughts you have about me, all of it brought on by all of my tall, shortcomings, and the fact is it’s evident, we’re all searching for some relevance, cause it’s better when you’re needed and wanted than when you need it and want it, no one wants to plead and beg, please, keep me, I’m worth it, and although it seems I’m speaking to another, truthfully, I’m saying this, for my own sake, so when the tears form as I compose this, I know it means more than I’ll ever know, as I feel my soul shake


--- ygb