Intimately speaking...
There have been a lot of feelings flying back and forth between various parties within the circle here at Young, Gifted and Black Inc., and even a few feelings from external sources. Many people have felt: wronged, hurt, scorned, shut out, misused and abused etc. (you get the picture). The question is, WHY? I can't speak for everyone and their situations (however, I'm about to), but I can only imagine that it's due to a lack of communication. And when I say communication, I mean in every sense of the word, from the grand explanation of one's wrong doing, to figuring out where wires got crossed, to the very simple, sincere apology. The problem with this is that some of us don't know how to communicate effectively.
I know that I can, however, I also know that I don't always do so, especially when necessary, but I know I will (which implies that I need to at some point in the near future (which also implies that it may just be overdue)). Unfortunately, it's selfish of me to make someone that feels wronged by me wait for an apology; which ultimately makes me even more the bad guy. But, given that effective is the operative word in regard to the way in which I'm discussing communication, I have taken it upon myself to be just that in the best way that I know how. "How is that?", you ask...if you don't know by now, then you just don't know us at YGB!
Some people have accused me of talking in circles, meaning that I often repeat myself and possibly confuse listeners; a quality of which I am well aware (and proud). It doesn't hurt to make sure that every point is covered, every implication is discussed, and every loose end is tied up. I want to make a flawless point, meaning I've already pointed out the flaws so that it's apparent that I've thought thoroughly of what it is I'm thinking, and in turn, saying. This character trait may very well be my tragic flaw (along with others if you ask some people), but I own up to it because it allows me to carefully evalutate, articulate and discuss very complex thoughts and experiences. In other words, it is the fancy philosophical rhetoric that I use in order to explain why I may or may not be right or wrong, and no matter what, at the end of the day, I understand WHY it is that I think the way that I do. However, it is also the reason why it takes me a month to have a long, overdue conversation with a friend about aforementioned feelings of being hurt and done wrong.
I'm not completely sure what my point is, nor am I sure what it initially was, but I feel like now, as I'm thinking of what to type next, I have been trying to construct an argument in order to explain (i.e. "justify") current circumstances. I don't know...whatever...yeah, I'm done.
--- ygb
Wednesday, July 28, 2010
Tuesday, July 27, 2010
Yea...Uhh Hun.
Some of the lines in this rhyme were comprised of things that were actually said to me. I'm not about to give this grand explanation, the stuff in this verse is actually stupid to me, but then again alot of things are. Listen, I'm done, I'm at work right now, I have a lot of work to do, I wrote the verse, hopefully it speaks for itself.
Be upfront say what you feel but, when you don’t trust, that hate it will build up, can’t seem to wheel the, conversation down the right path, somehow become quite mad, now emphasis, placed down on how sensitive they sound, often times I can’t relate, but I often find that they can place, their head on my shoulder to lean on, step outside yourself, too nonchalant, but the motives to be strong, why keep on and on, with the same, speech when all along you’ve known for weeks, months, or years, each time you amongst ya peers, you find the answers, that you wanted to hear, but needed them verified by a complete stranger, when there it lied, within yourself but to seek that moment of truth you barely tried, and swearing I’m, not ya mans, or ya friend then where was I, when it came crashing down, funny acting now, but I’m there to try, to give helping hand, so gather round, all dispersed, who’s left but E.D? But Ima be, drama free, so Imma keep, ya name, from mouth, please don’t bother me, with how is he and how is she, if I was we, then I would see, it from their point but they forgot to speak…so now that he has stated verbatim, in rhyme, created the lines, but now I feel like I’ve wasted of time, get over yourself, lighten up, take the chill pill and overdose, we laugh, it’s nothing but a joke, so be mad, at other folks, we had ya back, and still do, but until you, learn to relax, you will lose, me as, that real dude, when she has eventful, things happen, give you, peace at the temple, you need that and feel soothed, so subtle I spoke, we all have been it, so what’s the difference in you being the butt of a joke, I’m appalled at all this arguing, Ima call you out on it, all in all, darling you a narcissist, now I’m off to it, my occupation, I got to say this, why is something so petty the topic of my conversation?
...I don't know but whatever.
This is the first installment, of something I hope to be short lived. Stay tuned for more after I have this sitdown...should be interesting to hear what's said.
Peace...and NOTHING but Love.
E.D.I ELM
Be upfront say what you feel but, when you don’t trust, that hate it will build up, can’t seem to wheel the, conversation down the right path, somehow become quite mad, now emphasis, placed down on how sensitive they sound, often times I can’t relate, but I often find that they can place, their head on my shoulder to lean on, step outside yourself, too nonchalant, but the motives to be strong, why keep on and on, with the same, speech when all along you’ve known for weeks, months, or years, each time you amongst ya peers, you find the answers, that you wanted to hear, but needed them verified by a complete stranger, when there it lied, within yourself but to seek that moment of truth you barely tried, and swearing I’m, not ya mans, or ya friend then where was I, when it came crashing down, funny acting now, but I’m there to try, to give helping hand, so gather round, all dispersed, who’s left but E.D? But Ima be, drama free, so Imma keep, ya name, from mouth, please don’t bother me, with how is he and how is she, if I was we, then I would see, it from their point but they forgot to speak…so now that he has stated verbatim, in rhyme, created the lines, but now I feel like I’ve wasted of time, get over yourself, lighten up, take the chill pill and overdose, we laugh, it’s nothing but a joke, so be mad, at other folks, we had ya back, and still do, but until you, learn to relax, you will lose, me as, that real dude, when she has eventful, things happen, give you, peace at the temple, you need that and feel soothed, so subtle I spoke, we all have been it, so what’s the difference in you being the butt of a joke, I’m appalled at all this arguing, Ima call you out on it, all in all, darling you a narcissist, now I’m off to it, my occupation, I got to say this, why is something so petty the topic of my conversation?
...I don't know but whatever.
This is the first installment, of something I hope to be short lived. Stay tuned for more after I have this sitdown...should be interesting to hear what's said.
Peace...and NOTHING but Love.
E.D.I ELM
Saturday, July 10, 2010
Recent Works
Musically speaking...
Recently, I've been pondering a number of things relating to male and female relationships (see post entitled 'Nature vs. Nuture) that have come from various circumstances to which I've played a part or been a witness. Fortunately, these same thoughts and experiences have provided me with some really good material. So without further adieu, I present to you...umm...my most recently written stuffs:
The first piece, 'The Meaning':
Keeping with tradition, I find that I’m sleeping with the women, that love me most, toll taken, cause I’m not willing to reciprocate the feeling, so my friendships get blurred when I’m chilling with a different, lady, see, I thought my position was a given, but now it’s obvious, there’s no dipping without getting, wet, tears running, river in the making, so I’m sitting, intuition says leave it, let her shake it, but that’s easier said than done, especially when you’ve had the fun, and she feels she’s been had, can’t really tell her not to be upset just cause you don’t wanna answer the, questions, no hands are up, but that’s cause you know it takes two for this dance, so what am I to do when I start pulling my pants on up, and I’m walking outta the door with no romantic hug, and you sitting alone thinking, 'what the heck is the problem, why is it that we can’t become...' what you thought was us, but my thoughts are a product of my mind, not emotions, so your heart is crushed, then naturally, from the reaction we see, I’m the villain for not being what you ask me to be, but actually, I never masked my intentions of being an individual so passionately chasing the things I want with love not being one of them, at least for the moment, I know just what I wanna do, yes, and love, is what I wanna do when I’m not trying to balance my love and my love for you
The second piece, 'My Heart & I':
My heart and I, always at odds, we don’t see eye to eye, cause I think I’m a smarter guy, see, I look at it like this, til I’m living out a wish, there’s no sense in me trying to get a kiss, dismiss misses, I’m not tripping over this, cause if I want attention, I can get it from my mistress, but, he thinks I’m too smart for my own good, tries to remind me what it’s like to take flight with a nice young lady, be quiet, it’s no good, don’t dare tell me that without it I’m lonely, cause I’m not, and not only is that an excuse, it’s a poor one, so you gon have to try again, homie, and that he does with a familiar sound, fragrance from days past, brought to the here and now, then I’m caught with a feeling how it used to be, join forces with my senses and this is what they do to me, refresh thoughts that I thought I forgot, so it’s moving me in two or three directions, an old and a newer me, the question though is who to be
That's it, just wanted to share these with you since I haven't done much else lately.
--- ygb
Recently, I've been pondering a number of things relating to male and female relationships (see post entitled 'Nature vs. Nuture) that have come from various circumstances to which I've played a part or been a witness. Fortunately, these same thoughts and experiences have provided me with some really good material. So without further adieu, I present to you...umm...my most recently written stuffs:
The first piece, 'The Meaning':
Keeping with tradition, I find that I’m sleeping with the women, that love me most, toll taken, cause I’m not willing to reciprocate the feeling, so my friendships get blurred when I’m chilling with a different, lady, see, I thought my position was a given, but now it’s obvious, there’s no dipping without getting, wet, tears running, river in the making, so I’m sitting, intuition says leave it, let her shake it, but that’s easier said than done, especially when you’ve had the fun, and she feels she’s been had, can’t really tell her not to be upset just cause you don’t wanna answer the, questions, no hands are up, but that’s cause you know it takes two for this dance, so what am I to do when I start pulling my pants on up, and I’m walking outta the door with no romantic hug, and you sitting alone thinking, 'what the heck is the problem, why is it that we can’t become...' what you thought was us, but my thoughts are a product of my mind, not emotions, so your heart is crushed, then naturally, from the reaction we see, I’m the villain for not being what you ask me to be, but actually, I never masked my intentions of being an individual so passionately chasing the things I want with love not being one of them, at least for the moment, I know just what I wanna do, yes, and love, is what I wanna do when I’m not trying to balance my love and my love for you
The second piece, 'My Heart & I':
My heart and I, always at odds, we don’t see eye to eye, cause I think I’m a smarter guy, see, I look at it like this, til I’m living out a wish, there’s no sense in me trying to get a kiss, dismiss misses, I’m not tripping over this, cause if I want attention, I can get it from my mistress, but, he thinks I’m too smart for my own good, tries to remind me what it’s like to take flight with a nice young lady, be quiet, it’s no good, don’t dare tell me that without it I’m lonely, cause I’m not, and not only is that an excuse, it’s a poor one, so you gon have to try again, homie, and that he does with a familiar sound, fragrance from days past, brought to the here and now, then I’m caught with a feeling how it used to be, join forces with my senses and this is what they do to me, refresh thoughts that I thought I forgot, so it’s moving me in two or three directions, an old and a newer me, the question though is who to be
That's it, just wanted to share these with you since I haven't done much else lately.
--- ygb
Saturday, July 3, 2010
'Things' to Look Forward to...
Musically speaking...
There are some things in the making for us here at Independent Media Inc., and when I say things, I mean BIG things! Things that'll knock your socks off, things that'll knock your shoes off (in that order), and things that'll knock everyone's clothes off and have us showing each other how much we really care. These 'things', however, cannot be elaborated upon at the moment, just know that you'll enjoy them.
Also, in case you haven't noticed, there's been a new sampler posted off to the side for your listening enjoyment. It's a compilation of joints that have yet to be released (minus Slave 2 Dope), so they're all unfinished, but I can guarantee your wishes will be fulfilled. After all, that's what we do over here at IMI, grant listeners' wishes.
--- ygb
There are some things in the making for us here at Independent Media Inc., and when I say things, I mean BIG things! Things that'll knock your socks off, things that'll knock your shoes off (in that order), and things that'll knock everyone's clothes off and have us showing each other how much we really care. These 'things', however, cannot be elaborated upon at the moment, just know that you'll enjoy them.
Also, in case you haven't noticed, there's been a new sampler posted off to the side for your listening enjoyment. It's a compilation of joints that have yet to be released (minus Slave 2 Dope), so they're all unfinished, but I can guarantee your wishes will be fulfilled. After all, that's what we do over here at IMI, grant listeners' wishes.
--- ygb
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