Wednesday, July 28, 2010

"..both waiting for an honest invitation...to rectify the situation..."

Intimately speaking...


There have been a lot of feelings flying back and forth between various parties within the circle here at Young, Gifted and Black Inc., and even a few feelings from external sources. Many people have felt: wronged, hurt, scorned, shut out, misused and abused etc. (you get the picture). The question is, WHY? I can't speak for everyone and their situations (however, I'm about to), but I can only imagine that it's due to a lack of communication. And when I say communication, I mean in every sense of the word, from the grand explanation of one's wrong doing, to figuring out where wires got crossed, to the very simple, sincere apology. The problem with this is that some of us don't know how to communicate effectively.

I know that I can, however, I also know that I don't always do so, especially when necessary, but I know I will (which implies that I need to at some point in the near future (which also implies that it may just be overdue)). Unfortunately, it's selfish of me to make someone that feels wronged by me wait for an apology; which ultimately makes me even more the bad guy. But, given that effective is the operative word in regard to the way in which I'm discussing communication, I have taken it upon myself to be just that in the best way that I know how. "How is that?", you ask...if you don't know by now, then you just don't know us at YGB!

Some people have accused me of talking in circles, meaning that I often repeat myself and possibly confuse listeners; a quality of which I am well aware (and proud). It doesn't hurt to make sure that every point is covered, every implication is discussed, and every loose end is tied up. I want to make a flawless point, meaning I've already pointed out the flaws so that it's apparent that I've thought thoroughly of what it is I'm thinking, and in turn, saying. This character trait may very well be my tragic flaw (along with others if you ask some people), but I own up to it because it allows me to carefully evalutate, articulate and discuss very complex thoughts and experiences. In other words, it is the fancy philosophical rhetoric that I use in order to explain why I may or may not be right or wrong, and no matter what, at the end of the day, I understand WHY it is that I think the way that I do. However, it is also the reason why it takes me a month to have a long, overdue conversation with a friend about aforementioned feelings of being hurt and done wrong.

I'm not completely sure what my point is, nor am I sure what it initially was, but I feel like now, as I'm thinking of what to type next, I have been trying to construct an argument in order to explain (i.e. "justify") current circumstances. I don't know...whatever...yeah, I'm done.


--- ygb

Tuesday, July 27, 2010

Yea...Uhh Hun.

Some of the lines in this rhyme were comprised of things that were actually said to me. I'm not about to give this grand explanation, the stuff in this verse is actually stupid to me, but then again alot of things are. Listen, I'm done, I'm at work right now, I have a lot of work to do, I wrote the verse, hopefully it speaks for itself.

Be upfront say what you feel but, when you don’t trust, that hate it will build up, can’t seem to wheel the, conversation down the right path, somehow become quite mad, now emphasis, placed down on how sensitive they sound, often times I can’t relate, but I often find that they can place, their head on my shoulder to lean on, step outside yourself, too nonchalant, but the motives to be strong, why keep on and on, with the same, speech when all along you’ve known for weeks, months, or years, each time you amongst ya peers, you find the answers, that you wanted to hear, but needed them verified by a complete stranger, when there it lied, within yourself but to seek that moment of truth you barely tried, and swearing I’m, not ya mans, or ya friend then where was I, when it came crashing down, funny acting now, but I’m there to try, to give helping hand, so gather round, all dispersed, who’s left but E.D? But Ima be, drama free, so Imma keep, ya name, from mouth, please don’t bother me, with how is he and how is she, if I was we, then I would see, it from their point but they forgot to speak…so now that he has stated verbatim, in rhyme, created the lines, but now I feel like I’ve wasted of time, get over yourself, lighten up, take the chill pill and overdose, we laugh, it’s nothing but a joke, so be mad, at other folks, we had ya back, and still do, but until you, learn to relax, you will lose, me as, that real dude, when she has eventful, things happen, give you, peace at the temple, you need that and feel soothed, so subtle I spoke, we all have been it, so what’s the difference in you being the butt of a joke, I’m appalled at all this arguing, Ima call you out on it, all in all, darling you a narcissist, now I’m off to it, my occupation, I got to say this, why is something so petty the topic of my conversation?

...I don't know but whatever.

This is the first installment, of something I hope to be short lived. Stay tuned for more after I have this sitdown...should be interesting to hear what's said.

Peace...and NOTHING but Love.

E.D.I ELM

Saturday, July 10, 2010

Recent Works

Musically speaking...


Recently, I've been pondering a number of things relating to male and female relationships (see post entitled 'Nature vs. Nuture) that have come from various circumstances to which I've played a part or been a witness. Fortunately, these same thoughts and experiences have provided me with some really good material. So without further adieu, I present to you...umm...my most recently written stuffs:

The first piece, 'The Meaning':

Keeping with tradition, I find that I’m sleeping with the women, that love me most, toll taken, cause I’m not willing to reciprocate the feeling, so my friendships get blurred when I’m chilling with a different, lady, see, I thought my position was a given, but now it’s obvious, there’s no dipping without getting, wet, tears running, river in the making, so I’m sitting, intuition says leave it, let her shake it, but that’s easier said than done, especially when you’ve had the fun, and she feels she’s been had, can’t really tell her not to be upset just cause you don’t wanna answer the, questions, no hands are up, but that’s cause you know it takes two for this dance, so what am I to do when I start pulling my pants on up, and I’m walking outta the door with no romantic hug, and you sitting alone thinking, 'what the heck is the problem, why is it that we can’t become...' what you thought was us, but my thoughts are a product of my mind, not emotions, so your heart is crushed, then naturally, from the reaction we see, I’m the villain for not being what you ask me to be, but actually, I never masked my intentions of being an individual so passionately chasing the things I want with love not being one of them, at least for the moment, I know just what I wanna do, yes, and love, is what I wanna do when I’m not trying to balance my love and my love for you


The second piece, 'My Heart & I':

My heart and I, always at odds, we don’t see eye to eye, cause I think I’m a smarter guy, see, I look at it like this, til I’m living out a wish, there’s no sense in me trying to get a kiss, dismiss misses, I’m not tripping over this, cause if I want attention, I can get it from my mistress, but, he thinks I’m too smart for my own good, tries to remind me what it’s like to take flight with a nice young lady, be quiet, it’s no good, don’t dare tell me that without it I’m lonely, cause I’m not, and not only is that an excuse, it’s a poor one, so you gon have to try again, homie, and that he does with a familiar sound, fragrance from days past, brought to the here and now, then I’m caught with a feeling how it used to be, join forces with my senses and this is what they do to me, refresh thoughts that I thought I forgot, so it’s moving me in two or three directions, an old and a newer me, the question though is who to be


That's it, just wanted to share these with you since I haven't done much else lately.


--- ygb

Saturday, July 3, 2010

'Things' to Look Forward to...

Musically speaking...


There are some things in the making for us here at Independent Media Inc., and when I say things, I mean BIG things! Things that'll knock your socks off, things that'll knock your shoes off (in that order), and things that'll knock everyone's clothes off and have us showing each other how much we really care. These 'things', however, cannot be elaborated upon at the moment, just know that you'll enjoy them.

Also, in case you haven't noticed, there's been a new sampler posted off to the side for your listening enjoyment. It's a compilation of joints that have yet to be released (minus Slave 2 Dope), so they're all unfinished, but I can guarantee your wishes will be fulfilled. After all, that's what we do over here at IMI, grant listeners' wishes.


--- ygb

Saturday, June 26, 2010

Nature vs. Nurture

Intimately speaking...


Dealing with emotions is always a very, very, very, veeeeeery sensitive circumstance. Allow me to repeat that, it is a VE-RY SEN-SI-TIVE circumstance. It's often said that women are emotional creatures while men are more logical thinkers - is this true, who knows? Do I think so...from life experience, YES; however, in conversation with lady friends of old and new, two points continue to be brought up:

1) It is within a woman's nature to nurture (hence the emotional abundance)
2) Men are just as logical as women are

If it is within a woman's nature to nurture (as stated by said lady/ies in said conversation(s)) then I think nature will run its course and the human interaction will take place according to that perspective. What is overlooked, though, is where the woman is attempting to nurture.

::pause::
This is the point at which my maleness takes full effect
::unpause::

Do not, once again, I repeat, DO NOT attempt to nurture a man (in the sense of maleness, not maturity, because that point can and will be argued if need be) that has not expressed any interest in wanting to be nurtured. Of course, the question is then begged, "What do you mean by nurturing?" Could a friendly gesture be perceived as nurturing...yes, anything can be perceived as anything, but it's not simply a matter of who's perceiving it, as much as it is a matter of why they're perceiving it as such.

If a man says that he has no desire to engage in an exclusive, intimate relationship with not only a particular woman, but women in general, and that fact has been clearly stated numerous times, why is it so surprising to find that he remains true to that sentiment despite any verbal, physical or otherwise interactions with whomever he pleases. In other words, "Because I've stated my stance on my relationship with you (you being whatever woman/women at the time), I do not expect there to be any qualms whenever I decide to think/speak/act according to my being, and my being alone." Furthermore, the perception of a woman's actions are based upon her knowledge of the man's life circumstances, which means, (a) any action from the woman will be accepted as a sign of friendship and (b) in the case of said situation, ladies, you should not attempt to nurture where nurturing (beyond that of a friend, within reason) is not wanted; leaving you to be resentful of the time "wasted" on said gentleman. If you cannot naturally be as you are, in the very essence of my perception of the word, you have committed sin against yourself; you have acted opposite of who/what you believe yourself to be.

Moral of the story: you cannot have what someone is not willing to give you

Point 1 = Complete!



I phrased my second point as I did to show that men think the way women think. That is to say, men "think logically" because that's what they "choose" to do.


*think logically - not taking emotions into account as often as women do
*choose - perceived action that is often times not contextualized within the concept of socialization
(I will leave the socio-philosophical argument at that)


The often over-looked discussion of this point revolves around the simple notion that men are women, women are men, and both women and men are people!!! I refuse to believe that there are no women who do not act on the basis of emotion. No matter the percentage, they exist, so despite its nature as an anomaly, the truth is, no one ever wants to acknowledge the "crude/vulgar/misogynistic" ways of men being played out by women. As trite as it might sound, these are the social realms and margins within which we live our lives, more commonly known as labels. I have lady friends who are just as nonchalant about exclusive, intimate relationships, while being enraptured in exclusively intimate relations, as the men they're engaging in them with. So while some women feel that their nature is to nurture, others feel that they will nurture their nature.

Moral of the story: People should do what they want, however they please, and stop blaming others for their emotional sorrows (and by people, I mean women)

Point 2 = Complete!



I initially started this post to try and address a more personal situation, but I figured I'd just attempt to touch on the larger matters at hand. Hopefully it comes across the way I intended, because I'm not going back to read it in order to make sure. How about you just let me know!



--- ygb

Wednesday, June 16, 2010

Listen Up!....

Dear Independent Media,

(So I initially typed this out the first time and tried to post, and it went byebye, so I had to convince myself to re-type it! that means I truly love you guys, because the original post was LONG!smh)

Anyways, I woke up this morning with a sense of urgency to post this blog, and after much toiling back and forth as to whether or not to post it, I said f*** it! I'm grown and I can post whatever I so choose. And if you don't like it, find the delete button, lmbo! With that being said. I don't know what's been put out in the atmosphere lately but there has been a heaviness upon my spirit. And I've been feeling the blues as of late. I know that within the past year all of us (including those individuals reading), have faced some frustrating situations, issues, hardships, that have brought us to our knees, tears (men included), saying things we don't mean, giving up on dreams and hopes, gave us the blues, etc....but the truth is I need for all of us, myself included to put on our "Thick Face, Black Heart's" (if you don't know what this means then look it up).

I need for us to be strong and perservere....because we weren't created to dwell in our dark moments. I'm learning the best way to appraoch life is to come with the knowledge and understanding that yes bad things may happen, embrace it. Learn to work through it, and find the joy and overcoming it. I of all people needs to let that marinate! I believe so strongly in you guys that I'm willing to risk it all to see you succeed. And you ask "why?"...well it's simple because Nothing happens by happenstance in my eyes. Look back and recall on how each of you all met, RANDOM! Yes, even how I waltzed in the picture, super random, but the reality is I'm here to help you guys live to your fullest potential. I have heard so many people say, whether music industry related or not, that you guys have something unique and special, and I'm not saying that for shits and giggles!

I'm giving you guys time and space to figure it out what it is you guys want. You have desitines and how I look at it, the divine creator is not done with anyone yet, if we wake up each morning, there is something waiting yet to be done or fulfilled. So I'm making it known that I'm not going anywhere...so get used to my rants, my tantrums, my frustration, my drive, my pushing you guys til you think you can't be pushed anymore, my tenacity, my persistance, my pressure til you crack so I think can help piece you back together again, and my cussing you out at 4 am for whooping my ass in Scrabble (pure conspiracy! DO-OVER! now, as I squnit my eyes and roll them, hard!)

as I close, this we were all born with the ability to vision, and I believe that God has the ability to allow that vision to unfold...you just got to keep dreaming beyond your here an now. beyond Toledo, beyond your circumstance or situation. problems are always going to be apart of the equation, the question is what do you intend to do to work past what is meant to help build your character, your strength, your wisdom, and your growth...choose to live vs. die (and I don't mean literally).
anything worth having in life, doesn't just come, it takes hard work. I'm proud of you all...

you can have fun working and doing what it is you love to do-Music

with a high five and a hug,

your advisor, manager, friend, homie, niggey, pucnh bag (NOT!), whatever you need me to be...im there :)

peace and poetry,

Miz Naki

*this ish better post or i'm going to blow the internet up* (I really can't even hurt a fly if I wanted too, it just sounded mad aggressive)

Tuesday, June 8, 2010

Get Him Girlllllllll Photo Shoot!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Okay so where do I begin! (I will probably get the "for real, I can't believe you just put all our business out here look") But life is grand and this blog will make for a great laugh. So please someone call on me (arm raised in the air)! This morning was IM's first official photo shoot. I was probably more excited than these guys were simply because for the first time, they would have a photo where they were all in the picture together. It's not easy getting all of them in the same vicinity, but none the less after many schedule conflicts, we finally made it happen. I will try to make this brief but my observation of these hilarious men is simple: In reference to the photo shoot (actually to music too, lol) IM has something against FOCUSING! LMBO...ADHD would have definitely been a befitting name for them. But, YEAH!....so to sum it up the photo shoot that was supposed to last all of maybe an hour and a half ended up being about three hours long! And maybe I'm exaggerating but truthfully, shooting these young, gifted and black men was worse than trying to take photos of young children, LMBO! Between Ed I Elm's frustration with time and us (the photographer and myself) being completely uncertain of the location of the amphitheater in the park, Bono falling (not JUMPING as instructed) and almost ending his life, JoJo and his miscellaneous Blue shirt that look like a shirt that he randomly sleeps in (and he consciously put that shirt on, knowing he had a photo shoot), and Chrispi taking an hour to go back to the car to change his clothes and living up to his character trait of the group OUTCAST, they all made the shoot quite entertaining. So with that being said after a lot of yelling, sighing, shaking my head, the photo shoot turned out amazing, and we can't wait to share these crazy, daring, funny, photo's with you! Stay Tuned...

until next time...

peace and poetry,

Miz Naki